Determination
is needed. Thinking in terms of weeks and months instead of years.
What is needed is setting a goal and striving to achieve it. Because
as it is, I am in no way different from other people. I am drifting
the same way they are drifting. My only chance is to find a DIFFERENT
WAY.
Thus,
I want to change my priorities. I want to change my way of living.
To change to what?
I have ideal conditions. It could not be better. I am, in principle,
absolutely free. So what?
I see no other way than setting and realizing goals. Setting and realizing
goals. Setting and realizing. Setting and realizing.
Otherwise, there is drifting. "Life is real only when I AM."
If I am living consciously, then I know that I AM.
If we
set goals and are not conscious, if we are not attentive, if we are
not wise - then we are drifting. And, sooner or later there is a reversal
in direction. I want to avoid this. But first, I need to understand
what is:
DRIFTING.
Days
and years are passing. I am drifting. Again I am drifting. I am thinking
back. What was good and what was bad? It was good when I knew where
I was going. When from my depths I designed a goal and when I was
striving to get it. What is my goal today? Where do I go? Where do
I want to get to? Have I reconciled myself with life? Has a crystallization
occurred? Am I satisfied with it? What is my way?
I have
ideal - best of the best - conditions to answer this question. What
do I choose? And then, how do I want to realize this choice?
I am drifting. Again I am drifting because first, I was supposed to
understand "drifting"
No, it is better without planning. It is better if it will be based
on free association until the subject is exhausted.
Bielefeld,
West Germany. Europe. Earth. Solar System. The Galaxy. The Universe.
That's me in this perspective. The New Age is coming. Do I need a
greater scale of things? No, this is enough. So, here I am, on the
planet Earth, in the Solar System. I know nothing of other living
beings in the Universe. The purpose of my existence: unknown. So,
a hypothesis is necessary. A working hypothesis to be falsified or
confirmed. A kind of a compass. An axiom, a postulate to be verified
by developing a system based on this postulate and by checking if
it is useful, if it leads somewhere and does not drift in a circle.
So,
let's state the hypothesis. The only reasonable hypothesis that I
can state is that one which comes from the unknown system taught by
Gurdjieff.
This
system tells us that the World has a certain purpose. It tells us
that not everything works well. It tells us that there are certain
"bugs" in the construction.
It is
quite possible that using the meta-language one can prove that any
program on that scale must have bugs. So, the Universe is a program,
a program which has bugs, but which has the built-in capacity for
self-improving.
There
are, therefore, certain units that are brought to existence with
this specific purpose: to self-evolve to a degree high enough to be
able to find out the methods of debugging.
These
repairs can only be done on a local scale, therefore local units are
created.
Of course,
there are ways to act non-locally, but for that, one has to have some
knowledge of the operating system. This is thus the allegory.
I am
such a unit. I am alive, and I am endowed with some inputs/outputs
and peripherals; with some modems for communication. The computer
allegory. So, potentially, I have everything necessary for self-development.
Of course, during my life certain things went wrong, therefore certain
connections are wrong, certain others are even deadly wrong. But these
defects can and must be circumvented by closing certain channels and
by opening of others. Anyway, I can only do what I can do - no more.
This
is a general perspective. From this general perspective, my aim is
to save the Universe. Or, rather: to help save the Universe. And this
I have to do, whatever the future might be. Independently of the fact
that there MAY be an immortal soul that can be developed by conscious
effort and intellectual suffering, I have no other choice but to help
to DEBUG THE UNIVERSE.
DEBUGGING
THE UNIVERSE
"In the beginning was the Word..." Only today do I understand
this message. This means we are entering into an important era. In
a sense into a final era: When to decide to be of or not of the Universe.
This is the general perspective.
Now
my role in this opus: I am a worker; I have a mission that is to be
fulfilled. I have an individually designated mission; a mission to
fulfill. I have been sent here; sent into this time, this place, in
this and not in some other form. The first thing to do is to find
and read the designated task. But there is more. There are, namely,
information channels with which I can communicate with those that
sent me here and that are controlling the mission. Because the
higher intelligence must have some control, but it cannot do the work
which only I can do. So, there are certain information channels.
Of course,
I am not able to make free use of them. I cannot use them until there
is a guarantee that using of these channels will not bring harm.
Summary:
Universe is a Computer Program
Self organizing, Self evolving Units, some of these are
Debugging Local Units on a
Mission. There is a
Higher Intelligence and
Communication Channels.
Of course,
all this process is based on the law of big numbers. That is: not
everything can be programmed. Statistical fluctuations must be allowed.
OTHERWISE NOTHING WILL EVOLVE BY ITSELF. OTHERWISE THERE WILL BE NO
SELF-EVOLUTION!
It follows
thus that probabilistics, that stochastics, that elements of uncertainty,
elements of choice, are at the base of the construction of the Universe.
This is interesting and I want to work on this.
THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT.
I want to return to this point later on. But now, I want to proceed
further: What is my aim, what is my goal, what is my task? What kind
of work am I to perform? What kind of work do I want to perform?
The
Universe may be a deterministic automaton, nevertheless, with such
a complex action that there is no other method of predicting than
running the Universe to see what will happen. In this sense, therefore,
we must be satisfied with a statistical description when we want to
foresee the future. Let us say that this is a rough picture. But then,
where is free will? The ability to choose? For precognition? Something
is therefore lacking in this picture.
WORKINGS
OF THE UNIVERSE
The problem of determinism and indeterminism. The problem of free
will and the problem of chance. All this relates to the problem of
time and to the problem of other dimensions. Therefore I must not
discuss these things on too simple a level. So, we have the following
circle of problems:
TIME
- CAUSALITY - DETERMINISM - CHANCE - PHASE - OTHER DIMENSIONS - QUANTUM
AND CLASSICAL - COMPLEMENTARITY - INFORMATION - ORGANIZATION
What
is important here is that these are general laws - these are objective.
There are statistical laws that are valid "on average" and
there are laws that concern each individual case. But these laws leave
a certain rather big freedom. Within this freedom there is what IS
and within this freedom we are given free hand. Thus, not everything
is determined and predictions for the future have the form: IF
this, THEN this; IF NOT, then that.
I am
living in the world based on technology. I am using this technology.
We have computers. We know something about computer programs. Only
now we understand what it means: "In the beginning was the Word."
Therefore we should not alienate ourselves from this technology. Our
cognizance goes through technology - which does not exclude the fact
that for some so-called "chosen" people, there are other
possibilities of gaining knowledge. These are possibilities which
are not, however, saving ALL of humanity.
Thus,
I am aware of the fact that I am not developing for myself. I am not
working for salvation or immortality. I am sent here with a MISSION
and my task is to add to the saving of the Universe. I can do it by
helping humanity. But in order to do it, I need KNOWLEDGE, I need
to be able to DISCERN. So, the goal appears:
TO DISCOVER
THE WORKINGS OF THE UNIVERSE, TO LEARN ABOUT HUMAN BEINGS, ABOUT MYSELF.
To learn
to help the Universe means to help the CREATOR. To be of some help
to the CREATOR of EVERYTHING. Everything-that-IS is a great thing.
So, this is my ultimate goal. The goal from which all other goals
stem.
Now,
come back to the beginning. If this is my goal, then there should
be no time for drifting, no place for pleasures. Somebody told me
that I need to rest, but I do not need to rest when there is work
to be done. At each moment I can choose. At these moments I have to
be careful not to let things just go THEIR way.
So,
the ultimate goal is clear. Now must come realization. It is clear,
psychologically, that the goal is difficult. And there are all kinds
of obstacles, there are phantoms that can delude... all of mythology
is FULL of temptation stories!
The goal
is high and right and good, but for some reason, it cannot be obtained
by just anybody who can SEE it. There is some sort of filter in action,
there is a selection criteria. The goal can be reached only by some
chosen ones, some who can pass a test, who can oppose temptations, who
can prove to have enough strength, who can show that the Gods have them
under their care. Otherwise, I will perish. [Jadczyk, Research
Journals, 1988]
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