Article - Laura Knight-Jadczyk
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Article - Laura Knight-Jadczyk
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Chapter 15
As I have already described, the suicide of Frank's father opened a door to past life memories of an extremely unpleasant sort. It was almost as though the old gentleman attempted to give me a warning, and the Cassiopaeans described it as a "steppingstone" or a "milestone, " indicating that my "superconsciousness" was telling me something. Of course, as I also noted, based on standard teachings, put together with my emotional thinking that I needed to "save" Frank, resulted in the interpretation that I was intended to "integrate" these memories, forgive and forget. I created a wonderful theory that all of Frank's issues in the present life were designed to act as atonement for this former life of evil depravity. It never occurred to me that he just may have "graduated" in terms of the evil pathway as a result of that life and was now assigned to reinstitute that control in a different way! And how often do all human beings have "warnings" that they disregard, explain away, and later pay a heavy price for ignoring the messages of the higher self? In any event, the effects of this "steppingstone" were interesting. As I witnessed repeated scenes in my mind of being subjected to mental, emotional and physical torture at his hands, and experienced all the emotional and psychic horror and suffering all over again, I realized that I had been born with a carryover of submissiveness to the predations of others. I could now see that in my current life, I had acquiesced to domination by both my mother and my husband, and that this was very likely a result of a carry-over of this "program" from the previous life with Frank. Of course, I further reasoned that Frank was now in my life to atone for his sins, and was "helping" me to recover from what he had done, and this was why he was so concerned that I should escape from my marriage and the manipulations of my mother. It never occurred to me that he was intent upon helping me out of the frying pan into the fire - that he might be manipulating the removal of others from the picture so that he could resume his own psychological domination which was his own carry-over from the previous life! But, as it turned out, as I came to see this issue as something that needed work and will in order to NOT perpetuate a karmic burden of allowing myself to be negatively dominated, I also managed to become free of Frank's domination. All the clues that the C's gave about a "mission" and a "destiny, " I am sure he interpreted as referring specifically to him and myself in some sick fantasy where he was again the master and I was the slave. It was another instance of "semantic aphasia, " wherein the C's were delivering clues to me right in front of Frank, which he did not even understand because he was so lost in his "wishful thinking," the Achilles heel of STS. At the point in time when Ark "found me" as a result of the message posted to Steve Wilson's email discussion list, I was as close to dead mentally, psychologically, and even physically, as I had ever been. I had been stripped of everything I ever believed in, my life was basically at an end as far as I could see, and all I wanted was peace for whatever time I had left. There had been a partial revival of my interest in the world as a result of the C's hints about gravity waves, and I thought it would be a fairly simple matter of doing some little research, finding the clues, and voila! The Secrets of the Universe would be all laid out for mankind, and then I could die in peace and get some much needed rest. Frank, of course, was happy as a clam that I was getting a divorce. He now had the run of the house, and I was so wounded that it wouldn't have taken much to push me over the edge. Frank's plans are quite evident in the following session, and they included getting his hands on S**'s inheritance, and getting Tom French out of the picture. Nevertheless, in spite of the powerful emotional skewing that Frank was producing, the C's were still able to utilize his agenda to get a message through to me.
Obviously,
the Universe had other plans. We notice that the C's sent an urgent message
in the midst of Frank's favorite subject: stock market investing which
he firmly believed would make him rich if he could only get his hands
on some money to invest with. The C's said: Laura! Turn over stones, sell
apples, do whatever you have to do to get your computer refitted to accommodate
the Internet, including the online market system, as soon as absolutely
possible!!!!!! Well, since Frank was so taken with the idea of the stock market and being in control of an investment portfolio in real time via the Internet, he persuaded S** to pay for the computer upgrade that made it possible for me to do more than just run a mail program. So we see how the C's utilized Frank's greed and semantic aphasia to get me online which enabled Ark and me to connect exactly 40 days later.
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