Adventures With Cassiopaea

Chapter 14

I was devastated. I also saw it as forces "out there" deliberately depriving me of my closest friend and supporter. Even if Frank was a confidant, he was not a woman and there are things that women talk about that cannot be discussed with a man.

While Sandra was still on life support, I was unable to accept the fact that I couldn't have a miracle. I had had a dream about the event a few weeks earlier. In the dream, I had confronted Sandra's children in a hospital waiting room where she was lying sick. I told them that if they did not give her a reason to live, she wouldn't. When this exact drama actually played out, I decided to ask the C's if she would be able to be restored to health. Was she, as the doctor's said, really already dead? The C's confirmed this and agreed to step aside so that I could communicate with Sandra directly. It was an amazing conversation, and when it was over, I was convinced that I had, indeed, been talking with Sandra. Her personality had come through so strongly in her use of words, and her memory of events we had experienced together way in the past - things Frank could never have known about - that I was comforted, especially when she remarked that she was finally having some fun. I was able to let go of my hope that she would recover. A week later, after her family had all assembled to say their goodbyes, the respirator was disconnected and her body was allowed to expire.

The most stunning thing about the event was what I saw happening with Sandra's two sons, the ones she had babied and supported all their lives. They had never been required to be responsible for any of their actions, in the same way I had acted as a buffer for my husband. Just as I had always stepped in and "made nice" to fix things for him, Sandra had been doing it for her sons. In her case, it was slightly different, of course, but still the result of emotional programs. We do these things thinking that it is love, and now I was seeing the result. Her sons (aged 27 and 34) were actually angry at her for dying and depriving them of access to the good money she made that supported all their many ventures, all of which ended in disaster, at which point she poured more money into the situation to get them out of the soup. Now, she wasn't there to do it, and they weren't sad that they hadn't done anything for HER, they were actually ANGRY that she was depriving them of this income! I was stunned. All the love Sandra had felt for these two parasites, that she had expressed by doing so much for them, only made them want more and more and more - right up to her very life! And then they had the nerve to be angry that there wasn't anymore to get!

What, I wondered, is this thing we call "Love" that is obviously NOT love? How do we get sucked into these traps? How come we believe that giving and helping in every way we can is Love, when it is clearly not? Those two boys were now faced with having to figure out things on their own. Their mother had "loved them so much" that she had never allowed them to learn to walk on their own, and now they were angry at her that they had to walk, that she wasn't there to carry them anymore. And how difficult a road it was going to be for them. So, yes, they were angry; and in a sense, rightly so. She had deprived them of the incremental lessons of experiencing the consequences of their own mistakes, and now they were going to hit the wall in a big way, starting with having to pay for her funeral!

What I wanted to know was how do we get sucked into these traps of believing something is love, of giving when it is not really giving, of thinking we are doing something good, when all we are doing is setting someone else up for a big fall by not letting them learn their own lessons.

I wanted to know why it was so physically painful to stop this activity when finally we were able to see that we weren't really doing good when we helped others in such ways? What is it that blinds us to the truth? I already knew the answer: emotions. But I wanted to know where and how it all began. What was going on here? How did this start?

04-28-96
Q: (L) We had a little chat with Sandra and we thank you for that. Now, we have been discussing a lot of different things here, and the main thing that I have been focusing on is the trap of emotions. I would like to know if this trap is foisted upon us from external sources?
A: The formula is "foisted."
Q: (L) What is the formula?
A: Set pattern, like a maze.
Q: (L) Okay. And what is the most effective way to get out of this maze of emotional control?
A: Calculate.
Q: (L) Is there anything that can be done when one is in process of extricating oneself from an emotional trap to cut off or ease the pain of it? It quite literally hurts.
A: No need to ease.
Q: (L) Well, once you have done it and gone through it, or, more particularly, once you see that it is a trap, it doesn't hurt anymore - or lessens. Another thing is that we all have been affected by being sucked into emotional traps, seemingly since birth. Is this common for all people?
A: All? No, most, yes.
Q: (L) Would it be a fair statement to say that people who have potential to do very positive things in terms of clearing away and understanding the reality in which we exist, might be primary targets for this emotional turmoil?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Can you tell us what might be the characteristics of a person who is not caught in the emotional trap?
A: Embracing? No. Uniting? Yes.
Q: (L) Ah! So, you are saying that people who can clear the emotional traps can unite in a higher emotional sense?
A: Emotions are chemicals only.
Q: (L) So, if emotions are chemical only, is it true that when one is in physical proximity to certain people, that perhaps their frequency vibrations cause these chemicals to be stimulated or generated within us?
A: Okay.
Q: (L) And, that it takes great force of will and mental power to counteract this physical action?
A: No, just practice.
Q: (L) Okay, once you have done it a few times in small ways, you can build up to big ones?
A: Not quite correct concept.
Q: (L) I was reading this piece sent to us on the internet where this Cosmic Awareness source talks about people who deliberately have come in because, since the good guys really can't interfere from the outside, because it would violate free will, that many of them incarnate and thereby partake of the physical experience, and then wake up and be able to do the things that are needed on the planet. The object being to try to make sure that they will awaken to their purpose, and that emotions and emotional traps are used repeatedly and continuously to try to prevent them from awakening. What I am getting at is: what are the things that we can do to awaken? You have told us many times that we need to awaken. Obviously we are not fully awakened. We are aware of that. Is there some other thing we can do?
A: Let it happen naturally. If you are on a path, do you seek to jump up into the air and fly to the end of the path? If you did, you would regret missing the "rest of the path."
Q: (L) A lot of very strange things have been happening... Sandra and her heart attack, [my daughter] and her ankle, the terrible sicknesses I have had in the past months, [my other daughter] talking about the things that have happened in her experiences... it seems like, to me, that the situation in terms of attack is really heating up. Can you comment on this?
A: No.
Q: (L) Well, thanks a lot! Can we ask questions about it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, my eye infections, the ear problems, the loss of my voice for so long... were these part of the attack process?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) My mother also fell down and has a black eye. I am trying to find the portal? What is the portal through which all this attack is coming?
A: Discover.
Q: (L) Did we already discover it in part, i.e. SV and her mother and that situation?
A: No.
Q: (L) Are you saying that SV is not a portal?
A: People are not portals!!! They are only victims of the things that come through the portals. Otherwise, many could describe you as a "portal."
Q: (L) Well, I never said that I wasn't. Speaking of that...
A: When you concentrate on the people as portals, you falsely direct negative energy upon the soul units themselves. Rather like treating acne with the therapy to be found in a shotgun!
Q: (L) What is the appropriate response when you are in a situation and you know that the person is being victimized, yes, by the forces coming through the portal, but their victimization is causing you a great deal of problems? What is the appropriate response here?
A: How do you view those afflicted with disease? Do you throw rocks at them?!?
Q: (L) Well, no, you don't throw rocks at them...
A: What do you do, then?
Q: (L) Well, a person with a disease: you send or take them to a doctor or suggest that they go to a doctor.
A: For what purpose?
Q: (L) To discover the diagnosis of the disease, to obtain medicine, to either relieve the symptoms or cure the disease.
A: Bingo!
Q: (L) We are talking about people who won't even admit they have a disease! How do you tell someone to go to a doctor when they don't think they are sick? Most people do NOT believe that they are subject to control or manipulation from other densities! You have told a number of people that they were going to be subjected to attack and manipulation and they have blithely said 'Oh, there is nothing in our lives that would permit that...'
A: Denial is not incurable until you give up. Patience combined with kind invitations to participate in the learning process eventually allows the victim to awaken, thus to be open to cure. This helps you to build the "army" you seek. Isolation cures nothing. Thereby stifling progress, as any and all will ultimately be seen as "portals." Rather like "spinning one's wheels," yes??
Q: (L) So, in other words, you are saying I should remain married to my husband, I should have SV and other disruptive and destructive people over here constantly to 'participate' in the learning process?
A: The point is not to rigidly adhere to specific lifestyles, nor maintain exact patterning of behavior, merely to not close doors completely and permanently.
Q: (L) Okay, if a person were, say, a robot person, when a person becomes a robot person, what happens to the soul of the robot person?
A: Same process.
Q: (L) As what?
A: Death.
Q: (L) So, a person can die and leave their body, their body can be taken over and reanimated and controlled to function a and do a lot of things for a long time. Meanwhile, the original soul has completely departed to 5th density ready to recycle?
A: Yes, but body is replaced, not reanimated.
Q: (L) Is this what happened to [my husband] when he had that surgery back in 1981?
A: We caution that, even though you have met 7 "robots," in your entire lifetime, not to "see" them under every bush or around every corner. You have met so many people in your life. We gave you one, and only one!!
Q: (L) What was the source of the dream where this was stated to me quite clearly?
A: Dreams are the best forum for disinformation that exists.
Q: (L) Okay. I can see that. But, at the same time they are also one of the best ways to get information from the subconscious and the higher conscious, is this not true?
A: We have mentioned dualities a lot!!
Q: (L) Skipping the disinformation part, and just getting to the analysis part, the story of Bluebeard... I am still of the opinion, robot person or not, I am doing the right thing. Is it possible that, even in this situation, that I am caught up in an emotional trap?
A: Sure. This learning thing is anything but easy!
Q: (L) Yes, that's all fine and dandy, but we are talking about breaking up my whole life here...
A: Maybe, maybe not.
Q: (L) What good is channeling if it does not help you to make decisions once in a while. Once in a while, I say. Not all the time. Or to help clarify things! To put additional light on it instead of muddying the water!
A: We are not "muddying" the water," only you can do that!
Q: (L) Well, enough of that...
A: No, not enough of that. And a much needed pointer for you: answers to questions of global or universal significance provide for a greater personal learning than direct personal inquiries. If you disagree, check transcripts and especially un-transcribed sessions for validation! You will see, my dear!!
Q: (L) Well, that is why I said that was enough of that because I don't want to talk about my personal stuff anymore. I did think that the thing about the robot people was pretty significant, but obviously it is not that significant or important. There's two million of them on the planet, and I have been told that I have encountered seven. I did think that this was a pretty high ratio of robot people for one person to encounter...
A: Yes, but your life path has been unusual. And you have met 4588 people personally!
Q: (L) How many people has Frank met?
A: 2754.
Q: (L) How many were robots?
A: 3.
Q: (L) How many has PZ met?
A: 3856.
Q: (L) How many robots?
A: 1.
Q: (L) So, why seven for me - yeah, we know the path is unusual...
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Can you tell me in what sense it is unusual?
A: Can't you?
Q: (L) Well, I thought I would trick you into telling me...
A: No tricks, we only treat.

Q: (L) I am so tired now that I cannot formlate a legitimate, reasonable, intelligent or coherent question of global or universal significance, we will say goodnight.

So even though the C's were telling me many things in the above dialogue, I was still not seeing how to properly connect it all. But again, we see that I was being urged to get all the transcribing done, and to search the transcripts for the clues. It was being hinted that there was an "unusual" aspect to my life, and that there was obviously something that needed to be awakened to, but what it was I couldn't yet see. But the C's suggested that I concentrate on questions of global and universal significance.

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