Adventures With Cassiopaea

Chapter 14

Initiation is not a glorious inpouring of life and love and tears for the beauty and oneness of the world.

It is sheer terror.

It is a descent into Hell. It is the Shamanic descent into the underworld to do battle with demons. It is the dismemberment of the body, the flaying of the flesh from the bones, and the subsequent rebuilding of the self on a different foundation - a foundation of spiritual verity.

And if I could convey to you that Hell, that sensation, that solitary test in which the soul is weighed, BY THE SELF, finally and completely and seen for what it has truly done, you would see how little truth there is because of all the beliefs of the Matrix that have been inculcated and promulgate and tended so carefully by our emotions and by the deceptions of the predator within who convinces us that we are "good" and "pure" and there is "oneness."

Indeed, one sees that there is "oneness," but one sees that the aspect of God that is experienced at this level is the black, sucking, feeding maw of STS. One sees how little true Love is actually manifested at this level of being. One sees that all of our illusions about "goodness" and truth and beauty are LIES. They are masks for more feeding.

And that is so horrifying an initiation that few survive.

That is "paying everything."

Now, re-read what Gurdjieff had to say about the matter; how he pointed out that a person has to "pay in advance," that the key is to accept the idea that one is not what one thinks, that there is a different reality from which our own is projected, and that developing this idea in the realm of pure thought, and then using it as the platform by which one can observe and analyze, is the key to being able to see for a moment, and then again. One must be able to see the interactions of the Petty Tyrants in our lives, the Predators who prey on us in the Theological Reality. And then, one must be willing to act. It is only after action that the true nature of the Predator reveals itself just as the Vampire reacts with violence to being exposed by the presence of a mirror. Because, it must be kept always in mind that there ARE predators who are predators by choice - even if that choice is made at some level, in some part of themselves that is not available to even their own conscious awareness. They, too, are part of the Matrix, and they wouldn't be able to play their roles if they were not consciously convinced that they are right, that they are "good," that they are righteous and long-suffering.

After this month of suffering, of initiation, of SEEing, I was wanted to try to formulate some questions to determine what I ought to do next. Even though the spiritual reality was changed, the physical reality was still in a state of near desperation. I had no idea how the children and I would survive to the extent of not knowing how I would keep food on the table.

04-24-96
Q: (L) I would like to deal with certain issues relating to the progress of this "mission" or "project" as you have described it. As you know, we have experienced serious disruptions and "attack" in recent months. I came to a conclusion that my husband is a robot person. But, I am not going to ask you to confirm or deny that. I came to that idea through information in the transcripts. What I do want to know is: is it likely now that much of the attack will cease since that energy has been removed from my environment?
A: Maybe, but not necessarily in the ways you think! Robot or not, all are programmed.
Q: (L) All are programmed including myself and Frank?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Well, considering a lot of my internal experiences, I had already come to this conclusion. What is the objective of this programming?
A: It is too complex to explain yet.

Q: (L) I was analyzing some of the material regarding the recent episode with SV and her mother. To this point, she still has done none of the things that you advised her to do in response to her requests for advice. I told her that I was very angry that she took so much of my time and energy and still did none of the things advised, resulting in EVERYONE being upset. Now, I had someone call me and tell me that SV was involved in some sort of coven or very dark organization. I just have a very difficult time believing this. How can she speak so disparagingly of such things and then, be a part of such? Yet, the source of the information knew things that "clicked" and could not possibly have been said unless this was true. Is it possible that SV could have multiple personalities and one of her other "selves" is doing this? As in Greenbaum?
A: Sure!
Q: (L) Is it possible for either Frank or I to be involved in such and not be aware of it?
A: Yes, but it is not that.
Q: (L) Does that mean that there IS some other thing that we are involved in, in some other aspects of our selves, that we are not aware of?
A: Close.
Q: (L) Is this something that happens in altered states or in sleep states?
A: Not happens, happened.
Q: (L) Something that happened in the past?
A: Laura, you need to consult a powerful, practiced, effective hypnotherapist to unlock these questions for you.
Q: (L) Is this something I could do for Frank in the meantime? Obviously Frank could have a big piece of the puzzle locked up in there...
A: Both of you and others. The locks have been installed in such a way that it is literally impossible for you to unlock them, as they were installed with full knowledge of present circumstances.
Q: (L) Who installed these locks?
A: Supremely powerful STS consortium!!
Q: (L) And what circumstances were they aware of, as you have mentioned, when they installed these locks?
A: All.

And right here we have a most interesting series of clues. Note that the reference was clearly to the fact that something was "locked" away from my awareness and that it had been done with "full knowledge" of the present circumstances. At the time, it never would have occurred to me that this could mean that Frank was "working for the other side" to make sure that I was not accessing the information, and if I ever did get to the point where it was possible, to attempt to derail or destroy me. At that point in time Frank was the only one I felt I could talk to freely, and he had been so supportive during the previous month that anything he had ever done prior to that time was completely forgiven.

Q: (L) You are the Cassiopaeans, correct?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And you are STO?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And you are telling us that we have locks on knowledge installed in us, installed by supremely powerful STS consortium. Can we not, in our conscious state, reject this programming, and ask you to inform us of this information?
A: Not possible!
Q: (L) What is not possible?
A: What you just asked.
Q: (L) You mean we can't change our minds, or you can't inform us?
A: Incorrect analysis.
Q: (L) Give me the correct analysis.
A: You cannot unlock, and we cannot tell you details of what, or why.
Q: (L) Why can you not tell us?
A: Free will violation, and endangerment of you if done thusly.
Q: (L) Is there some way to do it that does not endanger us?
A: We have told you.
Q: (L) Is it a danger to us to NOT unlock these things?
A: In a sense.
Q: (L) When I was kidnapped at the age of 3 or 4 in Jacksonville, how many days was I missing. My mother simply has a blank about it, which amazes her.
A: 12 days.
Q: (L) Who was it that kidnapped me?
A: Jan.
Q: (L) Who was Jan?
A: Corps member.
Q: (L) What corps is this?
A: Select division of economic legion under control of G5.
Q: (L) Economic legion? What is G5?
A: Intel.
Q: (L) What was the purpose of this kidnapping?
A: To install self-destruct programming.
Q: (L) So, this Jan was known to us as "Cecil Brien."
A: Yes.
Q: (L) And he more or less overwhelmed my mother and persuaded her to marry him just to get at me? I find this to be incredible!
A: It was easy at the time. She was vulnerable.
Q: (L) So, I have a "self-destruct" program. And Frank has one also?
A: Similar, but not an exact copy so as to mask.
Q: (L) Was Frank abducted in a similar fashion?
A: Close, but not exactly.
Q: (L) Was Frank's pneumonia when he was a child, that nearly killed him, part of this self-destruct program?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was Frank's father also programmed?
A: Semi.
Q: (L) Well. I think we can safely assume that every member of our families have had some sort of program installed, if only to facilitate our programming. This whole situation is beginning to sound inexpressibly grim.
A: Grim?!? You have lived decades after these episodes! How many brethren? Multiples of millions!
Q: (L) That is why I am saying it is pretty damn grim...
A: And it is part of a natural process, do not forget.
Q: (L) Well, we need some help from the good guys. Or, is it that unless we can figure it out we are stuck?
A: No.
Q: (L) It sounds so dreadful. We need some help here. I am becoming VERY tired.
A: You only need knowledge.

Q: (L) Well, I want to have a little direction here.
A: Concentrate on settlement. This can be a problem solver if handled wisely, a curse if not so! Use some of the funds to locate a "super-hypnotherapist."
Q: (L) Who might this person be? A clue?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is there some progress that we can make on our own?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Give me a clue... I want something that will blow me off my chair and enrich my life which is so grim... produce knowledge that will protect me...
A: Won't succeed until locks are blown off in proper way.
Q: (L) Well, I hope I survive until then.
A: Refer to previous answer.
Q: (L) If you guys were here, I'd throw something at you!
A: We'd dodge!
Q: (L) Well, you see my problem here... I guess I just want to know that there is someone out there who cares...
A: You should by now.
Q: (L) Then you guys ought to get behind my lawyer and jack him up...
A: We do, through you.

Q: (L) So, we have a LOT of stuff locked up inside and all we have to do is find the key...
A: Yes, exactly.
Q: (L) Anything else...
A: Beware of cardiac concerns. Not what is, what may be.
Q: (L) What specifically?
A: Possible thrombosis in future.
Q: (L) What can I do to avoid such?
A: Many things, but most important is your attitude. You must decrease your anger.

As it turned out, this was the second incident in which the C's "saw" something in connection with me that was actually related to someone I was interacting with. In this instance, it was Sandra. Within a few days of the above remark, Sandra suffered a thrombosis that stopped her heart. She was in her office when it happened, working after hours, so there was no one there to help her. She fell and a couple of people standing by an elevator out in the hall heard a crash of furniture being knocked over. After some discussion, they decided to investigate, but had to find the janitor to unlock the office. By the time the EMT folks arrived, Sandra had been dead for 20 minutes. She was revived and placed on life support, but her brain was dead.

Continue to Page 95

The owners and publishers of these pages wish to state that the material presented here is the product of our research and experimentation in Superluminal Communication. We invite the reader to share in our seeking of Truth by reading with an Open, but skeptical mind. We do not encourage "devotee-ism" nor "True Belief." We DO encourage the seeking of Knowledge and Awareness in all fields of endeavor as the best way to be able to discern lies from truth. The one thing we can tell the reader is this: we work very hard, many hours a day, and have done so for many years, to discover the "bottom line" of our existence on Earth. It is our vocation, our quest, our job. We constantly seek to validate and/or refine what we understand to be either possible or probable or both. We do this in the sincere hope that all of mankind will benefit, if not now, then at some point in one of our probable futures.

Contact Webmaster at cassiopaea.com
Copyright © 1997-2009 Arkadiusz Jadczyk and Laura Knight-Jadczyk. All rights reserved. "Cassiopaea, Cassiopaean, Cassiopaeans," is a registered trademark of Arkadiusz Jadczyk and Laura Knight-Jadczyk.
Letters addressed to Cassiopaea, Quantum Future School, Ark or Laura, become the property of Arkadiusz Jadczyk and Laura Knight-Jadczyk
Republication and re-dissemination of the contents of this screen or any portion of this website in any manner is expressly prohibited without prior written consent.

You are visitor number [an error occurred while processing this directive] .